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i'm not sure when this will get posted, because as of this moment my internet is down, but its important to note that the date is 4-4-12. wait, 12 right? let me look,yes 12, sorry about that. now on to the content of todays post, if i can type without hitting 10 letters at once, which is looking mighty tricky right now.
so remember the post last night on how I felt god wasn't working? yeah, that, um, he proved me wrong today, praise the lord! I spent most of the day laying down or just kinda sitting around, but I did send one text saying if you have any incouragement laying around i need it badly. that was at like 12 something, and I didn't hear anything but i was so depressed i was like fine whatever. so right before mom got home a little after 5:30 i got this text,i want you to get up right now and start praising the lord. no matter how it looks or if you feel like it, do it. That made me sooo mad, part of me was thinking how dare you say that to me, you don't understand what I'm going through, then a very small voice said this, psst, hey, the bigger ones still sayin how dare her say praise the lord, she has no psst, hey,idea what i'm, psst, hey, going through, psst, hey, what! what, do you want! the small voice said this: yes, she does know.that stopped me, i was like what? again, louder, she knows and understands. then it hit me and I was like, o! your right, she does understand. when that clicked the burden lifted. now, i've sped it up a little, all this didn't happen in 2 minutes, it was several texts and about an hour before i got it. now, why share this? because for the first time in at least 3 days my eyes are open, i now believe that anything i right in that leter, god will hear and deal with it, he already knowsall the desires of my heart, i believe he's wanting to see me surrender them into his hands. he knows i'm waiting on a word or action, and the devil also knows it, thats why he put it in my head, to skip church on easter. he told me and i believed that nothing i wrote would be done and i should just stay home because everyone else was gonna get a blessing but i wasn't. I'll go so far as to say this, I have a very strong feeling somethings gonna happen on sunday, if not to me then someone i'm close to. Something spiritual, not physical. The last time I felt this strongly, i ended up in the flor at the alter, and by the time it was said and done I had asked for and recieved the holy spirit. or rather as we call it the holy ghost. so in closing, i want to just thank god, o my i'm about to start shouting, o, don't do that,shhh be quiet! thank you god for putting people in my life who incourage me when i have nothing left, thank you for giving them endless patience and wisdom so they are able to deal with my moodes and can help, o, no, no get out of my head, not that i don't like the song but moms asleep in the next room, and when all i'm hearin is o what a singing, o what a shouting, on that happy morning when we all shall rise, well its really hard to be quiet. ya know? ok well anyway, thanks god for being so awsome!