tuesday thoughts.

so, i don't really know where this post will go. I'm in kind of a strange mood. I feel like reflecting on relationships, which to be honest isn't very smart. I've been organizing all my apps into folders, isn't it funny how we put people in folders? o family, church people, etc. I've been hurt badly by people i thought i could trust. The people that are suppose to be there through thick and thin haven't been. When I have been at my worst, mom had no clue. And I didn't know how to tell her. Our relationship doesn't work that way. We talk about unimportant things, how work was, what the dogs are doing , things like that. We rarely talk about so how are you really? Do you want to just hang out, maybe go eat or something? Its always surface junk which doesn't mean anything. Neer how's the building project coming on the church? Then I have my oldest aunts husband, who always finds things to criticize. Why don't you get a job? What do you do all day? Why do you keep that cat in the house?why don't you go shoping with your mom? I had lunch with him and my aunt today, and those were the questions i got. Then mom comes up here on the wkds and says, do you know how to brush your hair? how come you never do it? i wish you would start washing your hair, why do you o your toothpaste like that?why are you going to church on the day of your grandmothers funeral? Then, i have the other uncle, who omes up here, he oesn't care to come and help with whatever i need. We usualy go eat because he knows i like to go out. Never any dumb questions, never any criticisms. He does brush my hair and go through my purse looking for my brush if i don't have it out, which annoys me, but compared to the other relationships i've mentioned I don't have a problem.Last but not least, I have people who except me for who i am, they don't care if my hair's not burshed, or what i come in looking like. I never get did you brush your hair? I love being around those people. Always so positive, o you can do anything you set your mind. Your gonna volunteer at a school? go for it.and, that my friends is my rant on relationships.

the blind cafee.

no, its not a place to eat. Its a new site for blind people to meet, play games, have bible study, and just chat. you may be saying to yourself, o how great, well, it is, except for one thing. Its very very addicting, so i had to really cut back on going on there. If i stay on that site all day, i get nothing done. And i do mean nothing. My first trip on there was monday night, i was on all day tuesday, and most of wed. By that point I figured out i had to cut back because its not healthy to just sit on the computer all day and not come up for air. there's always things going on, people are either just chatting, or there's a game. I was on there from about 11 pm last night til 2 am playing uno. It was lots of fun, I hung out with a bunch of my twitter friends, so tat really was nice. You can actaly talk on there, if you have a microphone that is. if not then you can text. And, it seems to be a clean site, not a lot of cursing, and stuff. It got a little dirty tonight so i just left. I mean it wasn't bad, but just more than i was confertable with. If i stay for more than a few minutes I usualy get sucked in and lose track of time. So I'm being really careful. anyway, other than that not a lot to report. I'm sure you all know about my grandmother passing away on dec 20 so i'm not even going in to that. I've told it and told it. But I will say there's not a thursday that goes by that i don't think, 1 week, 2 weeks, etc. I'm still trying to get things together for my volunteer work. I hope to post more in 2013, but no promises.