Spring break

So as I sit here on the porch rocking, I figured I would update. I have been on spring break the last 2weeks. It has been nice but I'm ready to go back. I have got lots of reading done which is very good. I went to a bennifit last night for a family at church. A lot of money was raised. I went to ladies Bible study this morning, which was also good. The weather here is perfect. I'm really wanting a swing for the porch I hope to get one sooner rather than later. Well I know this had been a dull entry, hope to write more soon.

The life of a working woman

As I sit here waiting on my chicken to thaw, I figured I would write about the past 2weeks. Last week was my first full week volunteering. It went really well. The kids were really great. I work with two groups. I listen to them read and help them with words they don't know. There is also a math group that I sit in on, but I don't really do much with them. One of the big factors in this is the transportation. I usually don't have a problem getting there in the morning, but getting picked up is another story, so the last couple times someone has just below brought me home because it takes so long for ucarts to show up. Their usually way past there hour window they give you to wait. This week has been more interesting. There was no school Monday, I didn't go in Wednesday because I was really mentally off balance and just needed a day to regroup. But yesterday was good. I got to work with a young girl who is also blind, she's 6. We read books and did a little math. My second grade group, which happens to be my favorite, did really well reading. Actually it was a new story so they just went over vocabulary words. After I got done, I just sat in the office and people watched until I was taken home. So that's been my couple of weeks, I hope to have more to say. O yeah, spring break in a week! Yay!

tuesday thoughts.

so, i don't really know where this post will go. I'm in kind of a strange mood. I feel like reflecting on relationships, which to be honest isn't very smart. I've been organizing all my apps into folders, isn't it funny how we put people in folders? o family, church people, etc. I've been hurt badly by people i thought i could trust. The people that are suppose to be there through thick and thin haven't been. When I have been at my worst, mom had no clue. And I didn't know how to tell her. Our relationship doesn't work that way. We talk about unimportant things, how work was, what the dogs are doing , things like that. We rarely talk about so how are you really? Do you want to just hang out, maybe go eat or something? Its always surface junk which doesn't mean anything. Neer how's the building project coming on the church? Then I have my oldest aunts husband, who always finds things to criticize. Why don't you get a job? What do you do all day? Why do you keep that cat in the house?why don't you go shoping with your mom? I had lunch with him and my aunt today, and those were the questions i got. Then mom comes up here on the wkds and says, do you know how to brush your hair? how come you never do it? i wish you would start washing your hair, why do you o your toothpaste like that?why are you going to church on the day of your grandmothers funeral? Then, i have the other uncle, who omes up here, he oesn't care to come and help with whatever i need. We usualy go eat because he knows i like to go out. Never any dumb questions, never any criticisms. He does brush my hair and go through my purse looking for my brush if i don't have it out, which annoys me, but compared to the other relationships i've mentioned I don't have a problem.Last but not least, I have people who except me for who i am, they don't care if my hair's not burshed, or what i come in looking like. I never get did you brush your hair? I love being around those people. Always so positive, o you can do anything you set your mind. Your gonna volunteer at a school? go for it.and, that my friends is my rant on relationships.

the blind cafee.

no, its not a place to eat. Its a new site for blind people to meet, play games, have bible study, and just chat. you may be saying to yourself, o how great, well, it is, except for one thing. Its very very addicting, so i had to really cut back on going on there. If i stay on that site all day, i get nothing done. And i do mean nothing. My first trip on there was monday night, i was on all day tuesday, and most of wed. By that point I figured out i had to cut back because its not healthy to just sit on the computer all day and not come up for air. there's always things going on, people are either just chatting, or there's a game. I was on there from about 11 pm last night til 2 am playing uno. It was lots of fun, I hung out with a bunch of my twitter friends, so tat really was nice. You can actaly talk on there, if you have a microphone that is. if not then you can text. And, it seems to be a clean site, not a lot of cursing, and stuff. It got a little dirty tonight so i just left. I mean it wasn't bad, but just more than i was confertable with. If i stay for more than a few minutes I usualy get sucked in and lose track of time. So I'm being really careful. anyway, other than that not a lot to report. I'm sure you all know about my grandmother passing away on dec 20 so i'm not even going in to that. I've told it and told it. But I will say there's not a thursday that goes by that i don't think, 1 week, 2 weeks, etc. I'm still trying to get things together for my volunteer work. I hope to post more in 2013, but no promises.

a long overdue update.

I'm alive, i promise! the blogger site is horrible, so I decided to give the blogger app one more try. Ok, so i actualy have things to talk about.
First of all, I got my apartment!!!!! I moved in last saturday, i absolutely love it
! I've finally got things put away where i know where they are. New apartment also means new people to ride with at church. I kinda had a hard time adjusting. I wasn't use to going to sunday school, and honestly, i didn't like it at all, its not that he's not a good teacher, i just had a hard time. Today was much better, so I beti might have been just a little overwhelmed last week with all that was going on. But things are calm down now. I got my cable, phone, and internet hooked up on monday, yay. I'm looking into some volunteer work at one of the schools here. It helps that the principal happens to be my 3rd grade teacher. I don't know what I'll be doing , but i asked if i could be in the resource class, I want to work with kids who have learning issues. I know all about them, and if i can make them like learning, and gain some confidence, then that will help a lot. plus, if i can show them the love of jesus, then that's all that matters. Now, i don't force my beliefs on anybody, but I hope by my actions they will inquire and want to know about him. Plus, i wear a cross, and no, i most certainly will not take it off when i enter that school, if people can talk about islam and other religions, then i'm sure gonna wear my cross. I have a problem with people who bring there islam books and stuff into our schools, and nothing is ever said or done about it, but o no no no, you can't bring that bible in here, you can't wear that shirt with anything about christianity on it, its not a christmas tree,its a holliday tree. the islamic people can worship there gods no matter where they are, but if a christian prays or even talks about jesus o that's just wrong. well let me tell yall something!!!!! Jesus is the only one that can, save, heel, and set free!! read it, its in the bible, no man shall have no other gods before me!! I'm not tryin to ruffle feathers, i really didn't mean to get off on this, but i'm speeking the truth. Now, i don't judge others who believe differently or not at all, that's not my job, only one can judge anybody, and his name is above every name. it says work out your own salvation with fear and trimblling, so that's up to you. I'm not gonna not talk to someone who is islam, i'm not gonna unfriend someone who believes differently. But, remember, this is my blog, my space to write my thoughts, and you don't have to read it. so, on that plesent note, i'm out. more later.

first post from my iphone.

well, my computer is sick, so until further notice all my posts will be coming from my iphone. so, what's been happening? well, nothing really. Still no apartment, i'm trying to be patient and wait on god, some ays are harder than others. i've just been reading a lot of books, yay. The seasons seem to be finally changing, this weekend has been very fall like, and the week looks like it will remain this way. We're making progress on our church, we have started the foundation,and we're praying to have it done by the begining of january if not sooner. We're having a fund raser on saturday , its called faith fest, we'll have music, games, dunking booth, and lots more. I can't wait! I will be going homewith a couple from church saturday night, yay! i've known them ever sense i've been there, so i'm very excited! Also that sunday morning, we will be having church on the property, i expect god to show up and show off, we will be able to see the foundation from our worship area which is actualy the picnic area, so i expect great things, I can't wait till we're n this new building! We meet in the midle school just down the road, we're renting there auttotorium on sunday and weds till we get our church done. anyway, that's that. I just attempted to use the blogger app, no luck, it is not very voice over friendly. I'm having a hard time adjusting to the facebook app on my phone, its not bad, just different, i switch between it and the focus app which works pretty good with voice over. anyway, I think thats all i got, hope everyone hasa blessed week!

my love, and strugle with books.

don't faint, i'm updating twice in one month! this post came to me saturday afternoon, well part of it did, the other part is still taking shape. So, this might end up being a 2 parter. in fact if i can get my thoughts together it will be. SO the topic for this entry is books. Not what I'm reading, but how my love of books began. When I turned 6 i started kindergarden, and not only did i have to interact with sighted classmates and try to keep up, but I also had to learn how to read and stay on grade level.So i started learning braille, and I did fairly well at it. I was a good student, on a b honor role you name it till about 5th grade, then something changed.well, ok, thats not exactly true, the warning signs happened in about 3rd grade, when i would have spelling words i had to memorize and would be tested on them later. I had the braille copy, and mom had the print copy. every night was a struggle, aftger the rest of my homework was done, she would make me study those stupid words, then she would ask me how to spell them.I would sit here and pretend to be studying while i was really thinking about how quick i could get in my room and to my headphones so i could crank up faith hill, i think that was my artest of choice during those years.Anyway, to summarize, I was and still am a horrible speller, something wasn't registering in my brain, i still get there their and they're mixed up when i'm writing, well not they're but the other 2. Of course till half way through 5th grade my only way of reading was braille, they just kept throwing braille at me, here read this, and i didn't know any different. We did whats called an excelerated reader program that year, where you would read a book then take a test on it on the computer. Finaly, someone got the bright idea to introduce me to audio books, and that was it. I took off, reading everything I could get my hands on.Every week, we'd go to the library at school and i'd get another book, and would finish it and be tested on it. Let me tell you how in love i was with books, sometime that year I got the diary of ann frank, i didn't understand a lot of it, and boy was it long, but i finished it. I loved the places I could go just by putting a tape into a machine. Of course i wasn't interested in school stuff, I didn't care about science, but i did care about literature, I got excited when we would have to read novels, and I was able to answer most of the questions the teacher gave, but the rest of the subjects, please, just let me read and leave me alone. in fact, thats why my grades suffered so bad later because my textbooks wernt in audio format, and by the time I started getting them in that format I was past the point of caring. technology has developed in such a way that i can now read multiple books on my iphone. I use an app called read2go, it was very expensive, like 20 bucks, but it was well worth it. I get my reading material from www.bookshare.org. my only request when people suggest books to me is that it have a story line to it, i cannot read a book just with facts, something has to happen, i need a story. I know some of you are wondering well ok, if you have to have a story how do you read the bible? To be perfectly honest, its very hard. While the bible in itself is a story, I have a very hard time with it, but, every morning and every night I do a devotional, and it tells me what scripture to look at after it gives me something to ponder.I can't just open up the bible and read it I have to have some goal, some scripture i'm looking for. and. a lot of times I miss it because while i'm trying to pay attention my mind goes somewhere else. my senior year I was tested for being learning disabled. My reading was not up to grade level, in fact I can't exactly remember what they said it was, but i'm not stupid I knew it was low because every time i would have to read out loud in class i was always very slow. Even at the school for the blind, everyone read like sighted people and I struggled and had to sound out words. I took the act about the time i was being tested for being LD, and to tell you how bad it was my score was a 10.When i read braille everything just jumbles together and I don't get anything out of it, I do much better retaining information if i have audio, but still don't expect me to be able to tell you what happened at what point in the book. a lot of times I still forget who people are in a story, sometimes it comes back to me but sometimes not, actualy its not people its events that give me trouble. A lot of times I just go with it because i don't remember exactly what happened. now, the good news in all of this, I'm still gonna keep reading, this has not dampered my interest, I love going places with just a click of a button. I hope this has interested somebody.