11 days!

That's right, I leave to see my brother in ind in 11 days! Their is enough i's their isn't there? I'm so excited I can hardly sit still! I am nervous, to. I haven't gotten any further in my head then getting on the bus. I haven't gotten to the first few moments with the sil and the kids. I don't know what it'll be like seeing the brother after 13 years. I don't think it'll be what you see on tv. Where they're hugging and crying and saying o I've missed you so!First of all, I'm not emotional by nature. and secondly, he's a guy! enough said. Sleep arrangements haven't been worked out yet, but, I don't care! I'll sleep on the back porch if they tell me to. Christmas at the loftis house is dec 12! I have presents for the kids. I wanna make cookies with them, but I don't want to clean it up, so I'll just play with them instead. The kids not the cookies. I'll be really carefull and kinda nervous for a bit, I'll not talk as much, and I'll apolgize for everything if I'm feeling especially insecure. I'm sure my depression will make itself known at least one day. When it does, I'll be especially quiet, and not want to be messed with. If I can manage it, I'll go hide somewhere and read or talk on the phone or sleep. Usually after that, I'm ok. I hope it snows while I'm their! O snow, I want to play in you! I'm excited to see the tree and watch the kids. O yes, and I get to turn into a 5 year old again! Barbbi, here comes a 5 year old in a 23 year olds body. Dec 9, hurry up! please! Oh, p.s. I always ripped my barbi's heads off, so this could be interesting. I think I'm old enough to restrain myself.